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It's wonderful to have Rachel back, but also a little difficult. She's clingy, shaken by her experience, and Connor's finding it hard to get time alone with Kairos. It makes sense. Her last memories seem to be of the explosion that killed her, and he's been awkward about explaining to her that she's dead, at least in their own world. When she was a child, after her village was destroyed and her family slain by Nazis, not far from her hiding place, she clung to him. For almost a year he slept on the floor beside her bed, to be close when the nightmares came, as they frequently did. There were bombs, in the war. To have been killed by a bomb probably brings up all those old fears on top of the trauma of death. He wants to be there for her, again.
Only then it was just the two of them, and she was a child. Now he has a girlfriend, who is being wonderfully understanding and kind, but who he wants a few moments alone with. Rachel isn't a child, but a grown woman, and someone he was just finally beginning to accept as gone.
He feels terribly guilty sneaking away for a short while, to the Nexus. There, he runs into April, and bringing her back home with him at least helps give him an excuse for having gone out briefly. It's strange to need an excuse.
Only then it was just the two of them, and she was a child. Now he has a girlfriend, who is being wonderfully understanding and kind, but who he wants a few moments alone with. Rachel isn't a child, but a grown woman, and someone he was just finally beginning to accept as gone.
He feels terribly guilty sneaking away for a short while, to the Nexus. There, he runs into April, and bringing her back home with him at least helps give him an excuse for having gone out briefly. It's strange to need an excuse.
